I just wonder, how can someone really ignore someone they love?? I still check on him, his last seen on messenger, seeing him online since he deactivated the last seen on whatsapp.. I hope that in the hours of him being online, he may Atleast type something, whether or not he sends.. I hope he too wants to talk to me but is hesitant like me.. I hope he too misses me, like I miss him.. I hope he too fears the pain n loneliness like I do.. I hope he too is going through the same physical emotional trauma I'm going through because I still love him.. It's so difficult to even make myself understand.. I'm still hanging on a hope.. I still hope he comes n pulls me into a hug n we make this work once again.. Time n time again I've been proved wrong, time n time again I've gone through this agony cycle.. But I still can't make myself break it.. Entire day I portray a strong woman, but in this lonely hours, I'm a vulnerable person who needs assurance n comfort.. I stay up every night for a long time, just hoping he'll msg n I don't miss it.. I see him online on whatsapp n messenger, hoping a msg comes my way.. I feel so ashamed, I feel like a fool.. I just don't wanna learn my lesson.. This idiot heart still hopes for a happily ever after!!!
