Now I know!!

When I was a kid, it hurts so bad when you never came home for days on ends, when I didn’t see you for many days!

Now I know that you were busy with providing a life for us and that kept you away!! 

When I was a kid, I thought you never cared when you punished us for mistakes we made..

Now I know that you did that to correct us!!  

When I was a kid, I thought you never loved us when you scolded us for making noise while you slept!!  

Now I know that you were exhausted and you just needed a few minutes of rest!! 

When I was a kid, I felt you are heartless when you never stepped in to help some times when I was struggling.. 

Now I know that you taught me to stand up and be the confident independent person I am through that!!  

When I was a kid, I felt you did not cherish the time with us because you were always busy and stuck with "things to do"..  

Now I know that "things-to-do" never ends and you made time whenever you could!  

When I was a kid, I thought you were super human!! 

Now I know you both were just humans who were struggling everyday at life and trying to do the best you could.  

When I was a kid, I could not think beyond myself!!  

Now that I am a mom (and a dad), I know what selflessness means because now i know that you have been selfless in what you have done all these years!!  

When I was a kid, I always wanted to grow up!!  

Now I know that childhood was the best phase!!

The year that passed by!

The year 2022 is nothing short of magical!!

I learnt more about me, evolving into a better and stronger version of me!! Feel more empowered, stronger, happier and confident!! And ended up adding a couple of people more into my list of “friends to keep for life”!

This year taught me that silent confidence no more works!! Be brave, be bold, speak up for what you believe is right, speak up when you disapprove!! Don’t live to please everyone but just focus on being happy!! Obviously, not to hurt people for selfish reasons but when it’s your happiness or others, think about yourself too with the same care you show others!!

I learnt to put myself first, I discovered myself in many aspects, changed a few perspectives about life, made a few mistakes, and learnt how to be assertive!! 

There’s an enormous empowerment when it comes to self love and I can’t believe the confidence I have developed this year!! Yeah, I’m a ball of mush at times but I learnt how to navigate myself!! I learnt what I can tolerate and what I don’t accept!! I took a trip to an unconventional place and discovered my love for travelling.. I did outdoor activities, watched stand up, plays and went dancing and discovered I enjoy these activities!! Discovered few good shows and books!

This year helped me grow, find out about myself and taught me to stand up for myself instead of tolerating everything!! People pleasing wasn’t as good as I grew up believing it to be, it’s ok not to be liked by everyone!  I did stay cordial with everyone, though not friends!! And I discovered I feel ok knowing people dislike me!! The old me would go to great lengths to change their opinion, now I respect their choices and am “unapologetically” my unique self!!

So proud of myself and grateful to the people that were pillars for my transformation giving me strength, validation, support when I falter and loads of love and motivation!! I hope and pray that the coming years helps each of us evolve into better and brighter versions of ourselves!!

Love and wishes for a prosperous, healthy and successful 2023,

BB

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