The place you can be yourself and not have to have any pretence or mask on!!
It’s the place you come back to, the place you rest!!
It’s the place you find peace!!
And no matter how much you try to make a space your home, there seems something amiss when the comfort and security goes missing!!
No matter how you decorate or what renovation project you undertake, a place can never truly be your home unless you find peace in those four walls!!
People say that you can’t sleep in a new place because it’s an unfamiliar place.. imagine that feeling of unfamiliarity in the place you’ve stayed for decades!!
Then where do you turn to?? Whom do you run to?? When your “home” doesn’t feel like “home” anymore..
Where the place just fills you up with grief and the loneliness haunts you?
Where the place just brings you to the reality of how alone you truly are!!
The place becomes the nightmare you want to numb yourself off!!
The place reeked of laughter and life but now it somehow just got quieter..
All because the reason I return home everyday is missing for a few days!!
My home is the person that makes me feel complete, gives me a reason to return, shares strength and brings a smile!! He gives me peace!! His presence gives me fulfilment!!
And it’s saddening that a 9 year old burdens the responsibility of being the “home” for his mom!!
Your baby will be back soon in your arms,
ReplyDeleteBut one day he will find someone as sweet as you and fly away from the nest.
I don't intent to hurt you but try finding happiness in yourself and also explore out....
Who knows.. u might end up suprising yourself
Thanks!! I know that day will come and as much as it hurts, I’ll let him go!! Somehow just wanna hold the years as much as I can until that day comes!! And yeah, trying to find the peace and comfort within myself!!
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