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Maturity is to be the silent spectator rather than adding fuel and giving treat to the viewers..

Maturity doesn't come with age!! It comes when you take back the power from someone to stir you up and by being in control of your own emotions!!

The Woman from the other side!

I saw a glimpse of her in that fraction of a second when the door opened n shut.. Just a glimpse yet she was unforgettable!!

She seemed to be in pain, her hopelessness visible in her eyes.. She seemed to talk volumes of despair just by that glance.. She seemed to talk about how she feels, how lonely she is, how much pain she's gone through!! All this by a glance.. She seemed vulnerable, she seemed she would collapse.. She seemed so aged, her wrinkles covering her face, no trace of a smile as if she's never smiled.. She could tickle the bone of empathy in me wanting to just go and hug her, she seemed to direly need it.. Her desperation shrieking out as a cry for help through that look!! Her ghastly appearance didn't spook me as I felt these situations would!!

I don't know why her image stuck in my head, she seemed to be someone I know, her face familiar yet there was a sense of unfamiliarity in her, something so distinguished that made her unrecognizable.. It was a painful sight, can't vocalize it.. These thoughts occupying just a fraction of time before the door swiveled and I brought alive to my senses.. 

The mirror on the door reflected me, the "ME" I've been seeing daily.. But the "ME" that has changed.. The "ME" that seems to have grown weary, the unmasked "ME" that has been hidden away from the world, the vulnerable "ME" that has been stashed away by the strong "ME".. "ME" exists, time and again popping out to make it known.. The stronger "ME" convinces the weaker one that it's just a bad phase, a bad day.. Its gonna be fine, just breathe and take a day at a time!!

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Tolerating disrespect doesn't make you any great.. Giving chances isn't gonna change things either!! It just teaches them that your self worth is "NIL".. 

Stand up for yourself.. If they don't see you for what you're worth, they aren't worth your time to begin with!! 

A GIRL'S DREAM...♥

I dream a dream which I hope will

come true..

Ya you guessed it right, it's a dream of me

and you..

The dream of our wedding day,

When you will come on a white horse and take me away..

Dream of a day when you will be on your

knees proposing me..

It's my favorite dream which i love to

see...

Dream of a day when we will say "Yes, I 

do!"

That day everyone will know that you love

me and I love you too..

Dream of a day when I will be your bride

and you will be my groom..

When we will dance together in a

ballroom..

Dream of a day when I'll be in a white

dress,

and we will out of each and every

mess...

Dream of a day when I will walk down

the aisle,

Dream of the day when I will have the

world best smile ...

Dream of a day when all my dream will

come true,

That day when I finally will get u!!

Where's HER house??

From a young age, an Indian girl is taught that the house she's born in is just a temporary residence.. Her house and family is the one of her husband's..

The girl dutifully believes it and dreams of making a house at the place she gets married into.. But in that house she's been constantly reminded that it's not hers.. She's questioned on her behavior, judged on her ways of living.. She is taunted as to what did her mother teach her as if the life until marriage was supposed to be the training ground for her life after marriage..

Being at your place is the feeling of being comfortable enough to be your honest self, a place where you're not judged.. That's the kind of life most of the girls enjoy at their parents home until they get married.. But despite accepting the husband and his family as her own, his community as her own, setting forward to finally start her family and build her home, despite putting in everything she has to make her new home her own, a girl is constantly reminded that her parents are answerable for her behavior, her roots are still at her maternal house no matter how much sweat and blood she sheds for "HER" family.. 

Have you ever wondered why is a married girl questioned if she stays at her parents house over a couple of days?? Why is it a matter of concern to the world whether she chooses to stay with her parents or in-laws?? Even parents tell their daughters to go back to "HER" house after a couple of days otherwise"Log kya kahenge".. God forbid the situation where a girl leaves her marriage and seeks sanctum at her parents house and the whole world steps up to degrade her and her family, questioning her upbringing and character!! (Ask for what she suffered to take that stand before passing a verdict).. What doctrine does the world propogates expecting a girl to uproot herself from the place she's born and raised and then start life at a new place being the "perfect" person?? Why is the DIL a favorite trophy, either how PERFECT my daughter In law is or how the worst of the humans came into my life as my daughter in law!!

Can you imagine the doubt in her mind on the place she belongs?? Can you understand the dilemma she faces?? Do you feel an iota of her pain?? Maybe you'll understand your mom's and wife's plight better once you know the complex thoughts that runs in her mind.. Our mom's get a house when she gets a daughter in law home or if her husband has his own place.. I am not the one to preach to leave your parents once you get married, staying together is the best to happen.. But the thought changes drastically with the equation who is staying with whom.. If the parents stay with the son, the girl may not be judged as much as she would be if the son stays with her parents..

I know many of you think this isn't even a topic for discussion, this has been the practice since ages, why suddenly should this come as a thought!! But this is an age old practice where a girl is expected to adjust and groom herself to the family she's married into.. A girl needs her house, a place she feels liberated and unjudged, a place she can be herself without the prying eyes on her.. Open your eyes, peruse through the people you know, somewhere definitely a girl's tears will be seen!!! Give a house to a girl, she will give you a home!! I don't think anyone, be it a girl or boy, wants anything more than ending the day at your own place where you can finally be free from the obligation and be yourself, lose your inhibition and be at peace!!!

Nostalgia!!

I miss being a child..

I miss being carefree..

I miss feeling light headed..

I miss the feeling of being tension free..

I miss that pressure free days when the only boggling issue was to squeeze more play time or find new book to read or score well in the exam!!

I miss being able to simply stand in the rain n enjoy it..

I wish we never grew up so fast..

I wish life didn't teach the lessons in such bitter ways..

I wish things would be easy for each of us..

I wish we didn't lose the innocence of childhood..

And seeing my son enjoying his childhood, all I wish for him is "Baby, don't grow up so fast, life gets unfair as we grow!!" 

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The ideal world exists only in fantasies.. 

Happiness is only for likes on social media.

Struggle is real and everyone deals with some or the other form of it!

And the world isn't nice nor people genuine of their intentions.

I feel scared raising a kid in this times, I see evil all around, just a few glimmer of goodness!!