Motivation!!

What motivates us to do something??

Fear: Some people say fear motivates but that isn't the kind of motivation that should be there. Fear of failure should not be the motivation but the pride or happiness in success should be the motivating factor..

Encouragement: When someone or few people encourages you, you feel motivated to do better everytime.. When I pondered if I should continue blogging,  it was a friend who told me to continue what I do and that's encouragement for me.. It's the same encouragement that made me enter the field of CA without even knowing what the course is all about.. My teachers felt I had the potential, my friends chose to do it and so did I, didn't realize I'm not fond of it until very late!!

Success: being successful once makes you realize the fruits of your hard work encouraging you to do it again..

For me, my biggest motivation is my toddler.. Because I know that each and every thing I do or say is being watched by a toddler and my action and words are what moulds him.. That motivates me to be a better person, show him how to lead a life.. Even if I fail at times, I can teach him that failure isn't a bad thing but an opportunity to do better..

We need to find some motivation to do or be better, if not for anyone else, at least for our own personal satisfaction!!

Loss

We always associate new year with new beginnings.. However we don't realize that just like beginnings there are ends too!!

The first ever loss I experienced is that of my cousin.. I was too young, probably around 5.. Didn't really comprehend what death is but only understood that it made my mom cry bitterly and later understood that I can never see him or play with him again.. I lost one of my grandmas but I was only 2 then and didn't know anything.. Then came my both my grandpas and I regretted that we hardly have spent time with them..

The death that shook me up the most was my uncle's.. Because I never really realized that there could be such an unexpected death.. Accidents were supposed to affect "others", never expected someone "ours" to be in that place.. It shook all of us to the core, I haven't seen my dad so depressed, never seen an entire family so upset.. That death was and is a nightmare.. I met him just few days back, was sure to meet him again.. Never realized that it may be with him being so still and me crying with regret!! 

Loss isn't just death of near and dear ones.. It's also of those things that occupy an equivalently important place in our lives called pets!! We lost two barely few weeks old white kittens who were born outside our house and we decided to adopt them in the absence of their mom.. They were killed by another cat and we did want to hurt the murderer but couldn't.. We've lost a parrot and dog too (who was stolen by a boy)!! But the death of the goldfishes recently hurt me a lot since they died right in front of my eyes!! I could see them go from swimming around to barely breathing and staying alive to being dead and I could do nothing to help them.. That too one after the other!! I felt so helpless, just like I felt when my parrot fell on the ground and it slowly passed away!! It was like all the childhood pains coming to life!!

I can't help but sympathise with the medical staff.. Just like I felt helpless seeing my pets pass away in front of my eyes while all I could do was just watch and hope that they get better, even the medical staff maybe feeling the same seeing so many people losing life but being helpless.. It's the worst feeling I've experienced!!

The feeling of pain passes, life still goes on.. But that pain is easily triggered by a random scene or a thought of something that takes you back.. Loss is only accepted and we move on, it never helps heal the wound and recover!!

New Year resolutions!!

Every year we make certain resolutions and we promise to keep it all year long!! Great are the people who actually do it..

I keep my resolution honestly for the initial eight to ten hours, then I wake up!!

All of those who know me can guess that my resolution every year would be to lose weight and I am constant in that resolution!! I promise myself I will lose weight this year and end the year with +2 added to the starting number.. Now I'm tired with that revolution..

This year I've decided to rethink my resolution and make it realistic.. I've decided that I will do at least  twelve things this year that I've always longed to do.. Besides that, I've decidedI'm going to do is to be positive.. Positive attitude attracts positive feelings!! So the first thing I'm going to follow all year through is being positive and making genuine efforts to be happy.. You can spread happiness is only when you're genuinely happy!! Normally, we think over something that has hurt us, over think it more and more and stay in that state of pain, anger, frustration etc.. The one thing I've realised is staying off negativity is easier only if we make conscious efforts to ignore it, to avoid over thinking regarding that incident.. A minute lost in negativity is sixty seconds of happiness lost.. Put in efforts to get it off the system, let it pass and then find something that makes you happy.. Without a negative thought, finding happiness is easier since we become more receptive and open.. And I can definitely say so because I've been doing it last two weeks and it's made me more positive and happier.. Happiness is there everywhere, we should only let it inside us!!

It's been 2 weeks since the year has begun and it isn't so new any more.. Let us all just resolve that this year we will put in effort to be happy, be more positive and spread joy wherever and whenever we can!!

2 minutes

You have 2 minutes?? Let's cook Maggi!! (so the ads claim, I don't really propagate that thought)

Do you know what else can happen in two minutes?? Let me list the few things that has happened within a Span of two minutes in the last two weeks !!

1. 2 minutes of shut eye in the afternoon  resulted in a nail polish bottle being broken in the room and the floor and furniture being smeared with a glazing purple color and an innocent smile thrown in my direction by the toddler while walking around the room and painting everything purple!! It took me quite some efforts to get him out of there, clean and put him to sleep and around an hour of hardwork and one and half bottle of nail polish removers to clean the room!!

2. 2 minutes of focusing on a book resulted in all his belongings scattering on the floor, a room full of mess and the toddler on the TV table trying to play tabla on the TV.. Being a mom, having a clean organised house is my biggest dream!!

3. 2 minutes of talking on the phone and the toddler has found his way into the bathroom, turned on the water, half filled the bucket and plopped himself inside it.. Ya, didn't realise he learnt how to open the bathroom door..

4. 2 minutes today resulted in an incident  which in parenthood is protected by a vow between the parent and child that such incidents would never be disclosed..

5. I've taken 2 minutes now to end the blog and gotta rush to see what the vessels in the kitchen is being thrown around for!!